Leisure Time

I managed to get some work done yesterday, and I was prepared for the fact that I won't be doing any today. Today is the concert downtown (and probably C's apartment). He hasn't managed to get a hold of C yet to see who is going to be there, but I am going to try not to stress about it too much.

Yesterday really didn't turn out too bad. Aside from being fairly productive, he was also in a decent mood, which helped mine. He worked most of the day, but when he finished he came over. He had clearly been drinking a little, but he wasn't drunk. I was sitting at my computer and he came up behind me and put his arms around me and said, "I really appreciate you. You are a wonderful woman, and I am so lucky that I met you. And I really mean that, and all of the other things that I can't say." Of course, the last sentence made me a little crazy. Not out of curiosity, but because I want him to say all the things that he thinks he can't. But I guess he has to do what is right for him. It was still a nice speech.

I am just going to spend the afternoon relaxing and getting ready to go downtown. It is going to be hard to figure out what to wear--not because there is any sort of dress code at the concert, but because my clothes are getting depressingly tight on me these days. That is what happens when you write a thesis and hardly leave the house or wear anything that doesn't have an elastic waste band. His eating habits are miserable, and since we eat all of our meals together, it kind of rubs off. I need to get in shape. But for now, I will just have to make the best of what I have to work with. I will find something wearable. I hope.

I am going to enjoy today. It is going to be the last day out for at least a week (with thesis revisions and all), and I know that every time we do something together--hell, every day we spend together--is one thing/day closer to the end. I try not to think about it while I am actually out with him, but in quiet moments like this I can't help but remember how close the end is. At least I know to appreciate each moment/day. That is the silver lining. So I am determined to have a great time today. I will have a great time today.