Better

I survived my Monday surprisingly well. Somewhere between my last post and class, I decided that I was going to try to think positive and turn my day around. Shockingly, it worked! I was not a zombie in class, and actually participated in the discussion, and I did well on my quiz. It is amazing how much changing my attitude changed my day. Tuesday wasn't so bad either. After today, my week gets easier. So I guess things are looking up!

He is still sleeping here. He hasn't slept at his own apartment since... I don't even remember. I like him being here, but I am still suspicious that it is just because of his computer (which is still not fixed). I guess there is nothing I can do at this point. I asked him if it was because of his computer--he said no. I think I asked him at least twice. So I either tell him to sleep at his house, or be fine that he is sleeping here and stop questioning him.

He calls me from campus pretty much every day now and asks me: "What should we have for dinner? Should I pick anything up on the way home?" He uses "we" a lot. Yesterday he told me that he likes having someone to come home to. That should have made me feel good, but it just made me feel like I serve a purpose in his life, and that it doesn't matter that it is ME he comes home to. I know that he would tell me I was being ridiculous if I told him that. I don't want to be someone who just temporarily fills a void in his life.

So basically, he has moved in, and I am suspicious of his motives--as usual. Time to read and get ready for class.