Expect the Unexpected

Friday night ended up being a bust. It poured and two people canceled, so me and the only other person who showed up just watched a movie and chatted. I was pretty tired from my day at the library anyways (yes, I actually went).

LAST NIGHT, him and I had our evening out. I am still absorbing everything that was said last night. We went downtown around 4, and went and had drinks at a place with a gorgeous view of the city. We left there tipsy and headed for our dinner reservation. All was well, until we sat down to eat. He pointed at a picture on the wall (of Venice) and said "I want to take you there." Now, being hormonal, I got upset and said that that was never going to happen because I knew that I wouldn't see him again after the year ended anyways. We went back and forth on that point, when all of a sudden, he said, "I've fallen in love with you." I excused myself and went to the bathroom. When we left the restaurant, we walked along a scenic route. I let it alllll out. I explained why I was upset, and I choked out that I've fallen in love with him. He said, "Didn't you hear me back at the restaurant? I've fallen in love with you too." Then I cried a little, and vomited. I composed myself, and we went to two more places, and drank and danced. I talked to him about the fact that I am nervous that his ex is coming to the conference, and he assured me that he has no interest in rekindling anything, and that he is "with [me] now." I switched to drinking water at some point, but he got DRUNK. Eventually we made our way home (via public transportation of course) and went to bed. He is still asleep (in this room).

Needless to say, I am still processing all of that. I don't know if I should talk to him more about it, or let it be. I don't know if what was said even changes anything. I guess he felt that way before last night, so it probably doesn't. And by "I've fallen in love with you," he did mean that he IS IN LOVE WITH ME, right? It sounds like a dumb question, but I just find it hard to believe. If that is true, then why aren't we trying to make this work? I have a lot to think about.