Wasting Time

I feel better than I felt this morning. I suggested that instead of "movie night" my movie friends and I go out to dinner, and they were for it. HE is not home yet. He had a big class presentation today. I would imagine that he is at the bar. I am glad I am going out to dinner soon. What annoys me is that I spend days helping him mentally prepare for these projects and helping him through temporary losses of self confidence and attacks of nervousness, and then as soon as he is done and doesn't need my help anymore he is less eager to see me.

He needs to take me out... to eat... to a movie... anything. I feel like he only spends time with me IN, with the exception of the occasions when we go to the bar together. I want a DATE. To be honest, I've earned it. I think I will just tell him that I want to go out with him. To somewhere other than the neighborhood bar. I will tell him next time I see him. Which might be tonight depending on how long he drinks for...

I am still not looking forward to going downtown tomorrow, but I have to go, so there is no use wasting my time thinking about it. Maybe if I talk to him about it tonight, I can convince him to go out with me tomorrow night. That way I will at least have something to look forward to while I am looking at reel after reel of microfilm all day. Here's hoping...