Alone Time

I finished working on my paper for the day. Just a few more edits before I pass it in tomorrow and I will be good to go.

After I finished working for the day, I went over his house to eat some of my leftover Chinese food from last night. He was watching a dvd, so I sat with him while I ate. I have known him for awhile now, and I think I know him pretty well... and I got this feeling that something wasn't quite right. I don't know why, but I just had a feeling that he didn't really feel like having me there. So, I asked him if he wanted to be alone. He deflected the question. So I said, "Look, this is not a trap. It is okay to want alone time. Do you want to be alone?" He said, "Half and half." So I said okay, and left him to his alone time. I think I handled that well.

The thing is, I am a tiny, tiny bit hurt. Trust me, I didn't show it. That would have been unreasonable of me, and mostly, I understand. We spend A LOT of time together. I probably need some alone time too. It is just that when think about what little time we have left, I have a hard time detaching. But maybe it will be refreshing. The only thing that irks me, is that he asked me to buy beer on my way home from the library today, and it is all in his fridge. I guess I will just go get some if I want any.

So, considering I am not going to do any more work today, I have to decide what to do with all my alone time. Maybe I will rent a movie on OnDemand. It is too hot to go outside, and all of my other friends here are still working on finals. So, yes, I will watch a movie that I know he will not want to watch with me. I will have a "me" afternoon. I SHOULD wash my masses of dishes and clean my apartment, but I think that can wait until I turn my paper in tomorrow.

I still haven't decided what to do about the Online Guys. I feel like I am reaching the number of days where it is weird not to have responded (at least to the first one). What kills me is that I don't have anyone to get advice from on this. I can't talk to HIM about it. K, the only other person here who I would be comfortable talking to about something like that, has her mother in town this week and isn't around. I could call R, but she works all the time now, and I probably won't be able to get a hold of her. I guess this will be a good lesson in independence. I have to figure this one out on my own.

So, maybe a quick shower to cool down, then a movie. Alone time could be fun.