Just When I Give Up

I don't know how it happened, but as soon as I had given up because of all of his pulling away, he made a miraculous improvement. Yesterday, I did all my errands/chores as planned and was reading in bed when he called me (late in the afternoon after he got out of work) to ask if I wanted to meet him at the bar for a drink. So I went, and it was fine--nothing unusual. When we got back to my apartment, he started making dinner (a little out of character for him) and I decided to take a shower. After my shower, he finally initiated something. Yep, I got laid. So that put me in a much better mood. We finished making dinner, ate, then walked down to Blockbuster to get new movies. We watched one of the movies and then he initiated something AGAIN. Miraculous. From zero to two. He was also very physically affectionate in general all night. I have no idea what sparked the drastic change. Maybe he could sense that I was giving up. Whatever it was, things seem to be back to how they used to me. All of the walls that he has had up for the past few weeks don't seem to be there. He just seems much more open in general. I'm not going to question it.

In other news, my ex, M, sent me a facebook message. He just told me what he has been up to (didn't mention the new girlfriend), asked me how I've been, etc. I haven't responded yet. I will respond--there was nothing in the message that I wouldn't respond too, and like I said, he was always very good to me--but I just don't have the energy at the moment. Maybe later today. It is a little strange to communicate with him now. I just haven't had much practice talking to him since we broke up. I think we only did it once, and it was right after, when we were both still pretty emotionally fragile. Maybe he will be an ex that I can remain friends with.

I have to get back to thesis work today. I am not feeling up to it. I am so tired. We stayed up pretty late last night. We watched most of a second movie after the first. The first one we watched was Charlie Barlett, which was decent. Amusing, not too heavy. Definitely not an accurate representation of high school life--everything was just a little exaggerated, but I didn't have a problem with that. The second was The Bucket List, which I have a hard time forming an opinion on not having seen the end. I like it so far. Some parts were really funny. It is definitely less of a comedy than it was marketed as, but I don't mind--I think HE was hoping for complete comedy through the whole movie. I will have to see the end before I decide if I really like it.

So, today I have to jump back into work. He is working on his thesis too. All I really want to do is curl up with my novel (I didn't really get to read too much of it yesterday), and maybe nap. But I will be responsible today. At least until... 5:00? Okay, maybe 6:00. I just hate how in grad school weekends aren't really weekends at all. Especially once classes end. Every day is the same. Oh well, time to stop complaining and start working.