Boozed and Cruised

Earlier than I intended to be back, but I am tired. It was a good night, overall. I got a little seasick. I guess that is a risk of going out on a boat. I also got a little pissed at him. He introduced himself to a guy that I have a lot of classes with, but who does not know him at all. Embarrassing. Now this guy is going to think that I talk about him all the time or something. But worse than that, he introduced me to a guy he knows, but I don't, as his "girlfriend." I called him out on it while we were walking home. I said, "You can't just call me your girlfriend when it is convenient for you." Seriously. It makes me angry. I am probably overreacting, but it is unacceptable. I can't just be his "girlfriend" when it is convenient for him to call me that.

I am a little drunk. We ordered pizza. He is in his apartment. I told him that I was going home to change clothes. I am hungry, so I want the pizza, but quite frankly, I am kind of pissed at him. He is talking a lot more about what he is going to do after this summer--about places (states) that he might look for jobs. It makes me sad. He has no place for me in his future. I am an afterthought--and not even that--I am not a thought at all. His future has no room for me. I am just a distraction for him in the present. Soon I will be in his past.