Okay

I feel better today. I did see him later, but I ended up sleeping at my own apartment (by choice). I was laying there in bed with him, and he was snoring, and I was awake, and I just didn't feel like being there. It wasn't even the snoring. I just wanted to be home. So I got up and left. It felt right, and I slept really well. A turning point? We'll see.

I still have to finish my paper. I have class in three hours. It is almost done. I still have an overwhelming amount of things to do in general, but at least that is one thing down. I really need to clean and buy groceries today. I think having a messy apartment with an empty refrigerator just contributes to my bad mood. So, I have a plan: finish paper, go to class, go to grocery store, clean apartment, come up with final paper topic for one of my classes and email professor, read, relax. That seems like a doable list. I just hope I don't quit after going to the grocery store.

I know that he has a lot of reading to do tonight, so I probably won't see much of him. I think that that is okay with me. I have been in a crappy mood lately. I have snapped at him so many times these past couple days. I know that a lot of my bad mood has to do with him. So I should do a little detox program. I really, really wish I could leave for a weekend. Not like a class trip, and certainly not on a trip with him, but just sleep somewhere else. That would be hard to do though, so I will just keep busy, get my stuff done, and try not to knock on his door. Not that that ever works. But, maybe this time will be different.