Turning a Corner

I feel much calmer than I did earlier. It sounds kind of silly, but I feel like I have been going through a grief cycle: denial, anger, bargaining, depression, acceptance. I think that I may have finally hit acceptance. Part of loving someone is accepting and supporting what they want and need. He needs to part ways in August. I can't force him to want what I want. I wouldn't want to. I need to accept what he wants and support him. It is not fair for me to have confrontations with him about this so often. It is time to stop fighting it. I need to support him in what he needs to do.

I have told him everything that I needed to tell him. I have left nothing unsaid. There is no need to talk about it any longer.

I want him to be happy. That means losing him. Letting him go when the summer ends. It will be hard, but it is the right thing to do.

In a little while, when I am sure that he is awake, I will go tell him all of this. I know that I will cry. It is the last thing that I need to tell him. Then I will just enjoy the time that we have left.