Day 1

He left for the conference sometime early this morning. I have class until 1:30, and then I have to work on my midterm all day. I am afraid that wondering about him and his ex will distract me from my work. I just have to put it out of my mind. I told him about six times that I expect him to "behave." He cleaned his apartment yesterday "in case anyone comes to see it." Okay, this is pointless. I need to chill out and concentrate on my own stuff. At this point, he knows that even without the boyfriend-girlfriend titles, we are not seeing other people. I warned him that if ANYTHING happens with the ex I am done with him. I couldn't have been much clearer. So it is on him now.

I bought more Kettle Chips. I am a monster. I did go a full day without any. It is not the time to try to eat well. I am too stressed to control my food intake. I have a midterm due tomorrow at midnight, a short (but important) paper due Monday at 3, and a scary online reading quiz that I have to take between midnight Sunday and midnight Monday (which I haven't finished all of the reading for)--not to mention the MA thesis that I have barely started (if you can call what I've done so far a start at all). No messing around online today after class. I have to start right away. Or as soon as I finish my lunch. So, I have to start within a half hour of returning home.

I don't know what time he'll be home today. I know that his conference goes until 4:30. Maybe he will go out to dinner with conference people (including the ex)--or more likely, out for drinks. I won't expect to see him anytime soon after 4:30. I know him well enough by now to know that he will at least stop at the bar, whether by himself or with other people. I told him to come see me when he gets home to let me know how his day went. We'll see if he does.