Good and Bad

My meeting with my advisor went well. As usual, I was worried over nothing. I have until August to work on my MA thesis, and he gave me a lot of interesting ideas about how to approach it.

I have been reading all afternoon. I took my online quiz, so that is out of my hair. I should probably do at least some of my reading for my class tomorrow, even though I am mentally wiped.

I have been reading over at his apartment. He asked if I wanted to, and it helps me work to be around someone else who is also working. It was fine, but he is stressed out today and not in the best mood. When I suggested taking a break from reading and... you know... he didn't want to. Again, I feel rejected. I know that it is not reasonable to expect him to want to do that when he is stressed out, but I didn't see him all weekend and I am leaving on Thursday for my class trip. Plus, he seems to have no trouble taking care of himself (as evidenced by an entry below). It makes me feel so undesirable. He asked if I was angry, and I told him what I wrote here. I could tell that it made him feel bad. I really wasn't trying to guilt-trip him. The rejection just stung a little. Deep down, I know that he finds me attractive, etc, but it still hurts. Why has he been in the mood to do things on his own, but not with me? Again, I feel like I don't matter to him nearly as much as his academics. I guess I just have to accept that.