Ow

My heart hurts. I am trying to write this paper and I am having trouble concentrating. I want to see him, but I don't think he is home yet. I saw him earlier today and he said he had a lot of work to do tonight and won't be able to hang out much. I am pretty sure that he is at the bar now though. He got out of class an hour and a half ago. Not that there is anything wrong with him going to the bar. I just want to see him.

I feel down. Blue. Unmotivated. Deflated. Just--blah. I need a hug. I am stressed out beyond belief with my homework, but completely unmotivated to do it. The more I procrastinate, the more stressed I get, and the less I want to do it. And round and round it goes. I am starting to genuinely suck at life.